Silly

Mommy wanted to go to bed, but I convinced her to stay with me while I studied, so she sat across from me at the kitchen table, turned on her laptop, closed her eyes, and fell asleep sitting up.

Storytelling

This morning, instead of doing my morning cleanup routine, I hopped into my mommy's bed. For the next hour, she told me stories about my dad and about her favorite dogs at the park. I learned that my mom first noticed my dad when he helped her best friend move furniture into a new apartment and fell in love with him because she saw how kindhearted and compassionate he was. I also learned that my mom loves dogs, but only from afar. Her favorite dog is a prejudiced, little pomeranian named Baby, who refuses the advances of another dog, Bobo, because she only likes dogs of her own kind. Mommy also believes that Baby may be lesbian because she won't mate with any boys, even those in her own breed.

And to tie the two subjects together, we decided that my dad is very much like a dog because he is very loyal and loving but sometimes a little clueless and maybe a little prejudiced.

There is really nowhere else I would rather be than in my mommy's bed, with unwashed faces, snuggling and telling stories till noon.

We met with Dr. Tuan this morning to discuss the CT scan results. Unfortunately, mommy's tumors have double and some tripled in size, and new ones have appeared. Dr. Tuan recommended that we try our first line treatment again, the carbo/gemzar combo, and taxotere later if the carbo/gemzar is ineffective. We will begin again in two weeks, and during this short time, her cancer may continue to multiply.

Tonight, I decided to compare past CT scans and x-rays to our most recent ones, and I found that most of the tumors have regrown to their original size. In just two months, my mom's condition has regressed to how it was pre-treatment. I want to stay hopeful, but this cancer seems so much more powerful than me, my mom, and our family.

M.I.A

There's just so much to do and not enough hours in a day! I will post a longer, more robust(I really wanted to use this word. Forgive me if it's not used correctly) update soon. For now, please pray for tomorrow's CT scan results. We hope that the scans will show continued improvement so that we can continue with her current treatment. Please also pray that any radiation mommy is exposed to will just pass through her body harmlessly. She's had at least six CT scans, two PET scans, and countless x-rays in the past six months, and I am very, very worried about her body. Also pray for Mr. Tam, as he is mentally and physically tired from worry. Sorry for the short blog, but I promise to write a more detailed one soon. Have a blessed night!